The first half of June.

When someone gets bored with his life, he asks for something to happen. Something that will break the consistency...something new...something unexpected...

Then BAM! Everything's changed. Just when you think wishes only work for kids, they smack you right at your face, and there you are, not ready yet for anything, stumbling and rattling on what to do, on what needs to be done..and then you see yourself totally defenseless.

The month of June has been full of surprises. To think it just started its second half. I'm gonna do it this way...

June 1--We moved in to a new apartment. It's much bigger this time. Pwedeng-pwede akong magsayaw at mag-tumbling anytime. Kasama ko ang 3 bakla. Ronnie, Wacks and of course, my Mareng Chard. Kakalog-kalog kami ngayon kasi kahit ref, wala pa. So nabubuhay kami sa ice-tubig ng tindahan sa tapat.


with Mareng Chard pagkatapos magbuhat ng sangkaterbang gamit!

June 6---I applied for a different position in our company. Sabi nga ni Geng, naramdaman ko na ang mapaso sa kabilang department. Nagkalapnos-lapnos ang balat ko. READ: BURNOUT!!! Anyway, june 6 kami nag-start. It's a brand new environment! It's refreshing! Sana lang 'di ulit ako mapaso. But then again, hindi mawawala ang expectations ng mga tao...

June 9---Well, hindi naman 'to tungkol sakin. But still...Nahulog si Cha sa hagdan namin. I was not there coz I left for work early. Good thing, Mareng Chard was there. He cut short his most-awaited climactic event to bring Cha to the hospital. 6 stitches ang inabot at sa taass pa ng kilay. Sa KILAY!!! Cha is very particular with her brows. Galawin na lahat wag lang yun...TSK..TSK..so long, vanity..




June 12---Independence day! We rushed to the Asian Hospital coz I received a text..."Manganganak nako. Mga 10 PM." Saan ka pa makakakita ng buntis na nagtetext na manganganak na sya 30 mins before sya operahan?! Sino ito? Si July lang! Si July na kasama ko pa the day before to help her out with her last shopping spree before sya manganak. The thought is still terrifying! Pano kung nanganak sya bigla nung ako lang kasama nya?! Kal-el is so damn cute!!!The baby can definitely holler! DAMN! With all the screaming! I literally saw him turned red! Aww...very much July-like! 2 hours after the operation, I saw July...texting again, laughing, cracking jokes! Langya! Ang tigas ng ulo!


Kal-el...in a rare peaceful mode.


Kal-el...crying his eyes out!


Dar, Chard and me...with July

More new things to come...wala na nga lang akong oras. =)

Quick posting

My new bed...ahhh...moon and stars. Sarap umuwi! Tsss...babaw!

kung ano na lang

Ang sarap pala ng pakiramdam pag wala kang pera. Dati kasi pag alam kong 500 pesos na lang ang laman ng bulsa ko hindi nako mapakali. Parang nahihirapan akong huminga...

Sa dami ng gastos namin ngayon hindi ko na namalayan na naubos na pala pati ipon ko. Pero pinigilan kong mag-panic. I think I have to live my life on the edge again. Yung tipong hindi palaging safe. And I feel great. I get to appreciate small and much simpler things. I always take a cab when I go home but since malapit na nga bahay namin, naglalakad na lang ako pauwi. I have time to think about things and feel the breeze or should I say the smog in the morning. Not to mention, I get to work my ass out. After God knows how long, na-appreciate ko na naman ang lasa ng banana-que, ang amoy ng Growers peanuts, ang sarap ng buko juice, ang halaga ng beinte-singko.

I'm enjoying the feeling of not knowing what will happen next. The challenge of finding ways on how to survive without a penny until next payday. Again, the wonders of life's unpredictability bring back the "life" in me.

A Letter from Catstrike

Allow me to reveal my true feelings...what's really inside me. I know there's no way you'll come across this. I know you too well..you hate spending hours surfing the net. You can't even manage your Friendster account. That's the whole point. I would not want you to know how I really feel. If in the future, you see this, accidentally or not, bear in mind that I was able to keep up. That I'm doing good. That I'll be fine, with or without you.

I know this time will come. I did my best not to think about it. It slowly inches its way out. But I forced it inside, covering it up with anything. It is inevitable. As I always put it, "They just come and go". It surpised the hell out of me that it has to happen too soon.

We dreamt of growing old together. The thought of our kids calling one another "Mare" amused us. We even wrote to paper our "mutant/superhero" fantasies, wishing that someday we'll have superpowers and help save the world from the evil "Python". These, among many others.

But like they say...everything has to end.

A month from now, I'll be coming home to a quiet and empty house. No one to talk to. No one to share my food with. No one to ask if I'm wearing the right clothes. No more CSI or FRIENDS marathon. No more blaring "What A Girl Wants". No more 'harutan' if neither of us can sleep. I'll watch Darna and Encantadia in awe, drool over Brad Pitt, dance to every song all by myself. I'll go out to our make-believe patio, smoke cigs and dream of living abroad, alone..These shall happen because you chose to move out. And you might not know, but I consider it you moving out of my life.

I always live to my principle that one should hold on to things lightly, so it's much easier to let go and move on. But you were an exception. Among many of our DOGst-mates. (Screw 'Eagle' if he does not want to be referred as one.)

Where am I leading to? Just one thing, I'm gonna miss you. I'm gonna miss "us". Partners in crime. Or should I say partners in fighting the forces of evil. US. Raven and Catstrike. With your blazing fireblasts and my deadly purrstrike, together will soon conquer the world. But for now, let me serve as your witness as you fly and begin your new adventure to another land.

I'm letting you go now, Raven, Mareng Chard...I'll see you soon.

Leche..dito ka lang din naman sa Makati lilipat. Drama.

P.S.

Alam ko magagalit ka dahil malalaman na ng ibang tao ang totoo nating pagkatao bilang...superheroes...

CATSTRIKE


---I was supposed to post this a month ago but I chickened out. Well, so much for the drama. I already moved in with them! Wahoo!!! I don't mind if my joints are aching big time right now. (I carried big boxes, TV, microwave etc.) I'll be living with my three favorite gays in the whole world! And reminiscent ng TGIS and Gimik ang itsura ng bahay, in fairness. And the best thing, sa likod lang ng Makati Med. kung dati 5 tumbling lang ang bahay namin papuntang opisina, ngayon 1 1/2 tumbling na lang. Will definitely post pictures soon!!!